Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Driving

I WAS SITTING HERE EARLIER THINKING ABOUT THE SYMBOLIZATIONS OF LIFE. YESTERDAY I WAS TEACHING MY SISTER HOW TO DRIVE (SHE WILL NEVER ADMIT IT CAUSE SHE THINKS SHE KNOWS HOW ALREADY). WHEN SHE FIRST GOT IN TO THE CAR I SAID NOW CHECK YOUR MIRRORS AND ADJUST YOUR SEAT. SHE STATED "DONE SWEETIE' . MY DRUNK COUSIN WAS IN THE BACK MAKING LOUD NOISES AND TELL HER TO PULL OFF. SHE WAS SOOO NERVOUS SHE TOLD HIM HE HAD TO GET OUT CAUSE SHE COULD DRIVE HER CAR WITH HIM. HE WAS TOO MUCH OF A DISTRACTION. WE PUT HIM OUT AND CONTINUED TO BEGAN DRIVING, NEXT SHE SAYS NALL I CAN'T DO THIS IMMA JUST WAIT YOU TAKE IT CHARITA. I SAID NO I ALREADY KNOW HOW TO DRIVE YOU NEED TO LEARN, I'M NOT TAKING YOU THAT FAR JUST TO THE CORNER SO YOU CAN GET A FEEL OF IT. SHE TOOK A DEEP BREATH AND PROCEEDED TO PULL OFF SHE STOPPED AGAIN AND STATED IM JUST GONE WAIT TO THE NEXT RED LIGHT COME SO I CAN GO. I STATED NO GO OUT NOW THERE AREN'T ANY CARS COMING. SHE PULLED OUT FOOT STILL ON THE BREAK LOL. STOP PED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET. WE ALL WERE SAYING CHEENA YOU HAVE TO GO YOU CAN'T STOP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET YOU HAVE TO GO. TAKE YOUR FOOT OFF THE BREAK AND JUST GO YOU DONT HAVE TO SPEED JUST EASE ON THE GAS. SHE DID AND DROVE VERY SLOWLY KEPT STOPPING HITTING THE BREAKS THEN THE GAS. MY OTHER SISTER CAME AROUND THE SIDE OF HER AND JUST PASSED HER UP AND GAVE HER THE DUECES. WE LAUGH AND SAID JUST TAKE YOUR TIME DON'T FOCUS ON HER. SHE MADE IT TO THE PARKING LOT HER HANDS WERE SHAKING, SHE TOOK A DEEP BREATH AND SAID S--- I NEED A CIGARETTE NOW. I TOLD HER - SEE YOU MADE IT ALL YOU NEED IS TO PRACTICE IT EVERY DAY AND SOON YOU WILL BE A PRO. LATER ON THAT DAY SHE BUILT UP MORE CONFIDENCE TO DRIVE AGAIN AND WANTED TO DRIVE TO MAXWELLS. NOW WHEN WE GOT IN THE CAR AS USUAL I WENT ON TO INSTRUCT HER. SHE WAS VERY RESIST, SHE KEPT SAYING I KNOW, I GOT IT, EVERY TIME I SAID YOU GETTING TO CLOSE SHE SAID I GOT THIS I KNOW. I KEPT TRYING TO TELL HER TO JUST LISTEN I KNEW SHE CAN DO IT BUT SHE ONLY DROVE THAT ONE TIME AND JUST KNEW SHE HAD IT. I TRIED TO KEEP MY COOL I KEPT SAYING JUST LISTEN YOU DONT HAVE IT YOU HAVE TO LISTEN. SHE JUST KEPT SAYING I KNOW- RIGHT WHILE SHE WAS DRIVING RIGHT INTO THE POLE. I BEGAN YELLING THEN SAYING YOU HAVE TO TURN YOUR WHEEL, SHE KNEW SHE KNEW SHE KNEW. AFTER ALMOST REACHING THE POLE I GRABBED THE WHEEL AND TURNED US IN TO SAFETY. THEN SHE WANTS TO LAUGH AND SIGH. SHE HAD THE NERVE TO SAY YOU HAVE TO STOP YELLING. I SAID I DIDN'T YELL UNTIL YOU ALMOST LEAD US INTO DESTRUCTION. I SAID I BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT BUT YOU CAN'T LEARN IN ONE DAY. YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO DIRECTIONS. YOU CAN'T GET SOME INSTRUCTIONS AND THINK YOU JUST GOT IT ON YOUR ON. AS I LAUGHED ABOUT THAT EARLIER I REALIZED THAT THE SAME THING I WAS TELLING HER I NEEDED TO APPLY IT TO MY LIFE. I CAN'T JUST HEAR GOD ONE DAY THEN THINK I CAN TAKE OVER FROM THERE. THAT'S HOW I BECOME LOST AND TRAPPED IN THE SAME CIRCLE THAT I NEEDED HIM TO FREE ME FROM. AS MY FRIEND WOULD SAY YOU PRAY, GOD GRANTS IT, THEN YOU SAY OKAY GOD I CAN TAKE IT FROM HERE. MY LIFE SYMBOLIZED THIS ONE EVENT. IF I WANT TO LEARN SOMETHING NEW I FIRST NEED A TEACHER. ON MY JOURNEY EVERYONE CANT RIDE I HAVE TO GET RID OF THE DISTRACTIONS. I HAVE TO BE BOLD TO GIVE IT A CHANCE. FUNNY THE WAY MY SISTER JUST STOPPED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET IT WAS DANGEROUS BUT AT THE TIME THERE WERE NO CARS COMING. THAT COULD REPRESENT GOD PROTECTING MY ON MY JOURNEY. I WAS REALLY PONDERING ON HOW SHE WANTED ANOTHER RED LIGHT TO FLASH JUST SO SHE CAN GO. I FEEL THAT WAY SOMETIMES I JUST NEED THE WORLD TO STOP SO I CAN GO SO I CAN BE SAFE SO I CAN COME OUT. HOW I WANT EVERYBODY ELSE TO STOP DOING WHATEVER I STOP DOING SO I CAN MOVE FORTH. I KEPT TELLING HER GIRL GO YOU CAN'T WAIT FOR ANOTHER LIGHT FOR WHAT THIS IS YOUR TIME NOW. YOU GOT IT JUST GET OUT THERE. I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY FRIENDS TO CHANGE JUST CAUSE I WANT TO BUT IF I LIVE FOR GOD ALONE I CAN INSPIRE THEM AND LET HIM CHANGE THEM. "QUIT TRYING TO BE GOD CHARITA JUST DO WHAT HE SAYS." IF GOD CAN CHANGE ME ALONE WHAT MAKES ME THINK HE NEEDS MY HELP WITH CHANGING SOMEONE ELSE. WE ALL NEED HOPE, INSPIRATION AND ENCOURAGEMNET BUT SOMETIMES WE DESIRE IT FROM THE WRONG PEOPLE, IN THE WRONG PLACES. HOW SHE STARTED THEN STOP THEN PROCEEDED AGAIN, MADE HER TURNS AND LISTENED SHOWED ME THAT SHE WANTED TO DO IT AND I HAD ALL THE CONFIDENCE FOR HER, SAYING IT'S OKAY YOU GOT IT TAKE YOUR TIME. THAT'S HOW I SEE GOD DOING ME TELLING ME GO CHARITA CONSTANTLY ROOTING ON MY SIDE WAITING FOR ME CHEERING ME ON WHEN I STOP CONVINCING ME TO GO. WHEN MY SISTER PASSED HER IN THE CAR SHE LOOKED OVER THERE AND SAID SHE PASSED ME I SAID DONT WORRY ABOUT HER YOUR GOING TO GET THERE. WOW THAT'S WHATS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE PAYING ATTENTION TO THE DISTRACTIONS AND NOT CONCENTRATING ON WHAT LIES AHEAD FOR ME. WHAT GOD HAS FOR ME IS FOR ME I HAVE TO QUIT WORRYING ABOUT THE THINGS THAT'S GOING ON AROUND ME CAUSE AS SOON AS I DO THAT'S WHEN I CRASH SPIRITUALLY. I DEFINTELY SEEN MYSELF IN THE SITUATION ON THE SECOND TRIP NOW THAT GOD HAD MY ATTENTION FOR THAT TASK HE CONTINUES TO TRY TO TEACH ME BUT AGAIN I GOT IT GOD I CAN TAKE IT FROM HERE. I GET WARNINGS DONT GO THAT WAY, THE DEVIL IS TRYING TO KILL YOU, ME I JUST KEEP SAYING I GOT IT TILL GOD JUST HAVE TO SAY THIS FOOL AND GUIDE THE WHEEL FOR ME COVERING ME IN THE MIST OF MY SINS BUT WHAT IF HE STOPS. WHAT IF HE KNOCK ME DOWN OR ALLOW ME TO CRASH INTO THAT POLE LIKE WE COULD HAVE LAST NIGHT. I COULD HAVE SAT BACK AND LET CHEENA TELL ME SHE HAD IT. HELL I HAD BEEN DRINKING AND KNEW SHE DIDNT HAVE IT. IF I WOULD HAVE ALLOWED HER TO DECIEVE ME WE WOULD HAVE BEEN RIGHT INTO THAT POLE. BUT I KNEW HER I KNOWN HER LONG ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT NO MATTER WHAT SHE WAS YELLING OR HOW STRONG HER VOICE GETS SHE NEEDS MY HELP. IMAGINE ME WITH GOD WHILE IM DRIVING IN THE WORLD AND HE KEEPS TRYING TO GUIDE ME AND I KEEP SAYING I GOT IT. NOW WITH MY SISTER IM JUST AS SHE IS HUMAN. BUT GOD IS ALL KNOWING HE IS NOT DRUNK, NOT ONLY DOES HE KNOWS ME HE CREATED ME AND REFUSES TO LET ME FAIL. HE SEE THE ROADS AHEAD AND BEYOND AND PROTECTS ME CONSTANLY REMINDING ME OF WHO HE IS. HAVE YOU EVER HAD AN EXPERIENCE WHERE YOU DONT KNOW HOW YOU MADE IT OUT LIKE YOU ALMOST THOUGHT THAT SOMEBODY HAD TO BE THERE? FROM THIS DAY ON I'M GOING TO STOP SAYING IM CONFUSED ABOUT WHO I AM INSTEAD I STAND TO SAY THAT I AM A CHILD OF CHRIST THAT NEEDS TO GROW, AND LEARN AND LISTEN AND MAKE BETTER CHOICES TO BECOME CHRIST LIKE. I KNOW THAT I CANT DO IT ALONE. SO I'M GOING TO ALLOW HIM TO GUIDE ME. THE TRIPPED OUT PART IS AFTER ALL THAT WHEN WE GOT HER FOOD I ALLOWED HER TO GET BACK IN. SHE SAID NALL SISTER YOU TAKE IT FROM HERE. GOD STILL ALLOWS ME CHANCES.

1 comment:

  1. lmao hahah!!!!! THis was a good one and the moral of it speaks volumes!!!!! We Cant be God,though we are his children....But he plant these morals and sense of awarness in us to help make the correct desicions!!!!! LOVE IT!!

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